the dark and hollow places

"there's a difference between the possibility of hope,
the idea of things that we can never know
and the starkness of reality.
the w e i g h t of knowledge."

"something tugs on each syllable

making his words h e a v y."

"i can't hear the words he speaks to her...
but i can feel the w e i g h t of them.
like they fill my hollow chest and drag me down"

 "the lightness i felt earlier solidifies

into something dense

as panic teases my mind."

"inside wells a want so fierce

that it threatens to consume me."

 - the dark and hollow places by carrie ryan

i've mentioned before that i love dystopian novels. in them, decisions have more weight. they can mean life or death. sometimes i think the things we worry about seem so futile, so removed from what is really important in life. our problems are first world problems. 

i like reading these kinds of novels because the core of all the decisions tend to resonate with the character. when there is a sacrifice, it is for something greater than their self. it is for love, for strength, for hope for a better future.

there is weight in their words and in their actions. 

and i gobble it up because i've been tired of empty words for a long time.